I AM RANTING!!!!!

Guys I am so annoyed and you're gonna hear about it!

Guys I’m really bored. I feel like I keep going in circles practicing my old habits but even those are getting old. And I don’t even know what I want to talk about with you this week, which is unusual because I always have something to say. My head has been overwhelmed as of late, and I don’t even have the energy to care about the Oscars. To be fair, Hollywood is kind of getting boring for me now too. I don’t knowww, I think I’m getting disillusioned with what the mainstream considers “success.” I just wanna enjoy my day to day. It’s such an interesting time, and as a musician I can’t help but think about how art fits into all of this.

Tangent, sometimes I wish we could all come together and actually do something about what we keep complaining about within the current world circumstances, but the entertainment industry has convinced everyone they need to be chasing expensive cars and bitches. Just saying. It’s really disheartening, the idea that material wealth actually means you’ve “made it.” Not to say I don’t love money, because I do, but more so I love what it affords me within my own desires. Which is inner peace, health, good music, creativity, and good food. Man, I love food. Seriously. That’s another thing about Hollywood and the music industry, I’m not starving myself for you!! Get outta here!!! How are you gonna tell me I need to get on that damn ozempic shot so I can look like a skeleton, because that’s what’s “cool” right now?? Y’all look scary, for real. Whoever said it looks good being that skinny is lying to you!! Sick individuals. Am I being too pessimistic and judgemental? Probably. You tell me.

I want to make good music, create good moments for people to feel intense emotions, and then dip. But the music industry isn’t about music or talent, is it? Just a bunch of posers. And I don’t know if I want that. Let’s get real. Music is my life, music gives me life, and I will always be creating music. But is the music industry worth the trouble? Lemme ask the audience… If it’s attention I want, I can hop onto social media nowadays and post a stupid video. If it’s admiration I want, I can post a selfie. If it’s influence I want, I could always buy into whatever stupid manufactured trend is popular right now and act like it’s actually something I align with. It’s all bullshit. Why do we keep playing into this? Aren’t you guys tired of the bullshit performances they keep putting on to keep you distracted and stressed? I don’t knowwww guys, it’s getting old to me. Nothing coming out of the music industry is really exciting me lately, the allure has faded. And it’s not like I don’t want to curate that missing allure myself, but the idea that you’ve “made it” as an artist is when you’re the top performer just isn’t making sense to me anymore. Do you think the top performers actually decide what gets put out to influence the masses? Put your tinfoil hats on for a second… that would be wildly irresponsible for the powers that be to allow for just anything to influence the youth on a major scale. They don’t need to kill us, they just need to keep feeding us this idea of what “success” is, have us continuously chase it until we burn out, and then rinse and repeat. And ask yourself if what’s been pushed as “success” to you is actually something you want – if we were honest with ourselves, it probably wouldn’t align with the images the mainstream pushes. But who am I to judge? It’s your life. Just know when to leave the party. Don’t stay out too long.

I’m gonna change my life. I’m done ranting to you guys week after week about how I feel “stuck,” how I feel “bored;” I’m BORED with being BORED!! I’m tired of my routines!! I’m tired of my habits, I feel like I’m floating above my body and watching the things I do and just thinking “girl, get it together!!” Which I think is a good thing. Getting sick and tired of your own bullshit is the start of when massive change happens. And don’t get me wrong, I have plenty to celebrate right now. My single The Higher We Go has passed 5,000 streams on Spotify – actually insane when you think about it!! I am so so grateful it’s not even funny. Seriously, thank you guys so much. I feel so blessed. And that’s what this is all about. Feeling grateful and being thankful for the creativity I have been blessed with. It’s truly a gift. And with that gift comes the duality of being sick and tired of the bullshit!! Bring back real art! Where is your humanity?? Don’t even bring up AI to me right now. So stupid. Yeah let’s make a song with AI and act like it doesn’t sound completely soulless, even more so than the Top 40 hits being churned out. Just saying. AI music is like a white person rapping about the black experience – yeah it’s music, but you took the humanity out of it that is integral to the art itself. This is also a not-so-subtle callout to Jack Harlow’s new album, Monica. Just… absolute face palm. I’m tired. Stop it, white boy, just stop.

This was all over the place, so if you made it to this point I really appreciate you. For real. My head feels like it’s being split open, I don’t have a headache but it’s more like a spiritual division is happening… strange things are afoot in Saffron Bruno’s head guys. Watch out! Because things are usually so normal, obviously. But hey, you’re cool. Thanks for stopping by, I’ll see you next week with a more professional, articulate newsletter (hopefully less rant-y). TTYL! :)